So, I’ve been in Munich for a little over 1 year now. And since my wonderful 3 week holiday at home over new years, I’ve been feeling a little down.
Depressed even – and that’s what scares the bejeezus out of me. I don’t want to go down that road again.
I’m frantically trying to find out what has caused this, and is causing it, and how to counter it.
A biggie is that my closest friends here have or are leaving – and let’s face it: what is life without people that understand you from the get-go.
Work has been more challenging than last year – and my interactions with colleagues are not always as positive as I would like.
I also have that feeling of “what am I doing here?”
“What’s the point of all this?”
“When will I love someone who loves me?” again
Being broke, as far as money goes, doesn’t help either – that makes it more difficult to visit family and friends in Europe. And wasn’t that one of the points of coming over here?
So, I need to spend some time reflecting internally again, about what I want to achieve here in Germany, Europe (i.e. outside of SA) and why I don’t want to go back to SA just yet.
I’m also going to re-start my “grateful, learned and pissed off” list today.
Over the past weekend:What am I grateful for: Currently living in a city that allows me to enjoy the snowy winters in the mountains that are only 1 hour away
What did I learn: That cleaning my flat might be a “las”, but does make me feel better too
What pissed me off: The selfishness of people who don’t pay their way when a group goes to dinner, and “no-one understands” when the bill is €100 short…